Think....before she walks away.

I have a story to tell, if you're involved you'll know it well. Or maybe you just think you do, lemme tell you all what's true.
I met a woman when she was down, looked left and right, you were nowhere to be found. She told me from jump she wasn't looking for much, a movie here, dinner there, sometimes lunch. You were still on her tongue, with you her heart hung. I thought I could be cool, just be her friend...but that is where my self dilussion ends. I tried to be what she needed me to be, but feelings developed from me so easily. She was and still is the sexiest, smartest, down to earth, compassionate and forgiving woman I have ever met. I tried everything to catch her in my net. Not to interfere with you, I just wished she could love me like she loves you. The way she loves you is the way I've always wanted to be loved. You truely are blessed from up above. After three weeks of hearing your name, no she never cast her blame. She didn't down you, talk bad about you....she just needed someone to talk to, to talk this through. Then all of a sudden she tried to push me away, said it bothered her I felt this way. She didn't want me to have the wrong idea, wanted me to get the point it was either friends or no deal. It was never said the fault was hers, it was never said it was solely yours. Mistakes were made by both involved, this is how it all disolved. Then next at the club, you were there and I knew why....and I knew my chance with her had to die. It took me a week or so to accept I had to let my dream go. You know I didn't want to be around you, see you where I wanted to be. But I had to make a choice to accept her boundaries and decide that if I was really gonna be her friend it had to be unconditionally. I truely want her to be happy, even if it isn't with me. That's the difference in maturity. It would hurt so much to see how happy you made her just being there with her, because I want someone to love me like that too. Do you even realize people search their whole lives trying to find the kind of love she has in her eyes when she looks at you? It may not have been perfect, but it's more than most people get. As for "rushing in", I've always been there as her friend. Believe me all she had to do was say the word and I would have done ANYTHING to gain her love and loyalty, up to and including treating her like royalty. Wanting to be with her and knowing it would never be, the truth of that I had to see. So in an attempt to get out of the way, and since I knew you two would never let each other go anyway....I moved 2300 miles away. No, not for a second do I feel like I was but a tiny factor is your equation for disaster. I don't believe for a second I'm a pimp master. Ask her friends and her family, I never hid for a second I wanted her to be MY ODB. I had to come 2300 miles to accept that will never be. But with every one of her tears I know it will always be you in her heart, but you must know as friends we'll never part. As an unconditional friend I will do anything and everything she needs me to do to either be with you, or get over you. We both know it's up to you. Just know she is not a toy to be picked up and put down when you decide you have something to "go through". If you had had the messed up life and loves I've had, you'd see how lucky you are. Think long and think hard because there is nothing worse than looking back and saying "I should have" when they are already gone.